Spent this week mainly tucked under my blanket, almost catch a cold, finished several TV series and a great book; and in between attended lectures and finished my intern-duties for the week. Such a productive week, right? Hopefully, as of tomorrow, I’ll be gaining back my energy and not bow down to the dull weather that seems to be sticking around from now on.
Lately, I seem to have lots of arguments with the closest people around me. It must be because my Uranus hit my Venus or something, but all jokes aside, it made me question pretty much everything, starting from my own piece of mind to what kind of value these people put on to certain things, whether theirs and mine are different. It seems so. I’ve always been blamed for not caring, that I don’t give a fuck about stuff. I laugh at this. People don’t know me at all, the closest people to me don’t know me one bit, the ones who’ve known me forever don’t know the first thing about me. I feel things in such depth that they could never understand. Such depth often consumes me, and I mostly enjoy this intense energy floating inside me.
Lately, I want to take a trip to somewhere. Anywhere. I miss Maastricht and my care-free days as an Erasmus student and I really miss my friends there, whom I haven’t been able to keep in contact with. I just want to grab my backpack, hit the road; take the plane from Istanbul to Amsterdam and then reach Maastricht via the train. How I took my second home for granted when I was there. I locked myself in my studio all the time, when I should be enjoying every single minute of my time there. Don’t get me wrong, I love every bit of Istanbul, for me, it is the richest country in terms of the places you can discover, I mean, I’ve been living here for 21 years and I come across with a beautiful new place every now and then. But the politics, the traffic, the people, the chaos… I really need a break.
✘ Norwegian Wood | Haruki Murakami.
Finished this masterpiece two days ago
& started reading Fahrenheit 451.
☾ Inferno the movie,
☾ Black Mirror (!!!!)
☾ Shameless’ last season of course.
✘ Joanne (Full Album) | Lady GaGa
✘ Heartbeat | Childish Gambino
✘ No Role Modelz | J. Cole
✘ True Disaster | Tove Lo
✘ Run Run Run | Jungle Junge & Kyle Pearce
☾ Naan Bakeshop, Moda
(they serve the richest Turkish breakfast
with homemade breads & delicious food)
not eat at-
☾ Maple Barrel, Fenerbahçe
(their pancakes are really overrated)
do more often-
✘listen to your guts
✘read a good book